Finally, I was able to get in..

For so many months I couldn't log in to my account... Just now, I tried if I can get in without really expecting that I could...Whatever happened in the past? I don't know...I am just glad that I have my blogspot back. I can once again write down what I want.

Thanks, a bunch!

365 days ago...

Today is my first year anniversary with this company. Time flies... I still remember that I was a bit nervous when I started. I still have within me the joy of getting this job. 2 salary increases...several recognitions...one instance to claim the health benefit for my daughter...lots of overtime & overnight because of the work load...but it is okay....i am still enjoying my job. I am thankful to God for this new chance....

It is hard to please everyone

I have learned that somebody in my team believes that I am playing favorites.

It's hard to understand people like that. Hard to believe the extent one can do just to take the attention away from her mistakes. It is also disappointing to know how easy it is for others to believe or to talk at your back. People whom you thought are your trusted friends.

People are trying to put one down when they think that that someone is on his way up or when they think that that someone is already ahead of them.

Sad that there are people who are like that. They would rather see the negative things rather than the good things that you've done.

Sigh! Life goes on..as long as I am not doing anything bad to them. As long as my conscience is clear....I should not mind... God bless all of you..You know who you are...

8 years ago....

....8 years ago, my brother was still alive....he was happy with his 6 month old baby, & wife . He was a member of the Special Action Force of the Philippine National Police.

....8 years ago, our family was still complete. Nanay & Tatay were also still with us.

....8 years ago, I don't recognize the pain of losing a loved one. It was an experience that me & my family had to go thru 3 times...

....8 years ago, a brother next to me was still a live.

....8 years ago....we were 6 siblings and 2 parents.

how I wish to go back to that time....

Sending kisses to my nanay

Today is the 3rd death anniversary of my dear nanay. Time flies.... I truly miss her. I wish we had more time to be with each other.

Swollen Tonsils

My daughter had been complaining that something is wrong with her throat. It was hard for her to swallow. Even swallowing liquid gave her pain. We went to see a doctor at UMC that weekend and she was given antibiotics to fight off the infection. We were told to come back on Wednesday to check on her progress. During that weekend up to Wednesday, Pam really had a hard time. The antibiotics did not work. When her father accompanied her for the check up, they were referred to Asian Hospital for possible confinement.

Pam's two tonsils were swollen so much so that she might not be able to breathe anytime since the air passage was already being blocked by the tonsils. The pain is already extending to her left ear and by that time it was already impossible for her to take anything orally.

At Asian, they went straight to the emegency room as advised by the UMC doctor. My husband informed me to go straight to Asian so I left the office a little after lunchtime. I was so nervous. It was the first time that Pam is going to be hospitalized. I am thinking that maybe she would cry when the nurses will stick needles in her arm for the dextrose. I was a bit glad that I wouldn't be there by herside by then as I might cry, too.

They were still in the emergency room when I arrived. The hospital staff hasn't found yet a room for her. It was already past 5pm when we were led to a room at the 5th floor. It was a nice room - superior private. There was a TV, ref, own bathroom, and big space for the sofa bed and a window.

Pam reacted positively with the antibiotics that was put thru her dextrose. We were out of the hospital after 3 days.

It was a scary experience for us but it was a nice feeling that being covered by Maxicare, we would not be troubled with the financial aspect.

At the end of the day, after claiming Philhealth, Maxicare picked up the rest of the bill. When we were about to leave the hospital, somebody gave Pam a rose as it is a practice when a patient checks out.

I am really praying that nobody in our family will be hospitalized, ever. I just hate it there....no matter how nice the room is.

If any, the only good thing that happened to us during Pam's hospitalization is that the 3 of us had a time alone with each other. It made us realize how important we are to each other.

Independence

...Trying to be independent from us and getting dependent on someone else. ...

'Ma, I am the assigned marketer in school today. I am not yet that close to my new groupmates as we have just reshuffled so I will have to do it alone. Btw- we will meet at SM so that he can help me to carry the things I am going to buy" there goes the text message of my daughter.

Yeah, you're right! Not really sure if you can't carry them all. If you don't have a boyfriend, you can manage it for sure..but now that there is somebody to help you..suddenly, you can't lift things on your own anymore...

Okay, be dependent if you have to...but it should not impact your personality..you should be able to stand own your own as you are not always going to be with him. Just another way to be together...Hmmnnn...I know that..I have been there.. but back then, I was way ahead your age ..yours came too early......

Bad Thoughts go away...

...So this is how it feels when your daughter has a boyfriend already. I really have to stretch my patience sometimes. Need to give her my full understanding, maximum tolerance. But it is getting harder each day. She is not as demanding of my time anymore as she has someone else to occupy her time. Her constant texting irritates me. I don't also like her talking on the phone for so long. Maybe I am envious:-( I would almost say NO each time she tells me that she will have a visitor. I am thinking that she is allowing again that guy to eat our food, hehehe..when I saw some of their pics on the Facebook...I cringed...my..why have a shot with their faces so close..always smiling...hmmph! If this is not paranoia, I don't know what to call it.

...For the first time she really transferred to her room when in fact she has been sharing our bedroom for the past 17 years. Independence...yeah, yeah...I just believe that she is talking to her boyfriend until late at night on the phone. I wish her phone would get lost or be broken then I am not gonna buy her a new one anymore. That would be fun:-)

...I also saw on FB that she bought him a birthday gift. That would be from the money I gave her...If she has extra, why doesn't she just give it back to me? Hmmnn.. I am getting to be a selfish, old woman, huh!

...I don't think she knows his full background. We haven't met his family...although the boy seems okay but needs to strrrrive harderrrrrrrr to please me and to assure me that he can provide for my daughter when the time comes. For now, I am trying to be nice to both of them although deep inside I want to strangle them:-(

I hope that they will separate soon, that would be great...

~bad thoughts

feb 16. 2011