Independence

...Trying to be independent from us and getting dependent on someone else. ...

'Ma, I am the assigned marketer in school today. I am not yet that close to my new groupmates as we have just reshuffled so I will have to do it alone. Btw- we will meet at SM so that he can help me to carry the things I am going to buy" there goes the text message of my daughter.

Yeah, you're right! Not really sure if you can't carry them all. If you don't have a boyfriend, you can manage it for sure..but now that there is somebody to help you..suddenly, you can't lift things on your own anymore...

Okay, be dependent if you have to...but it should not impact your personality..you should be able to stand own your own as you are not always going to be with him. Just another way to be together...Hmmnnn...I know that..I have been there.. but back then, I was way ahead your age ..yours came too early......

Bad Thoughts go away...

...So this is how it feels when your daughter has a boyfriend already. I really have to stretch my patience sometimes. Need to give her my full understanding, maximum tolerance. But it is getting harder each day. She is not as demanding of my time anymore as she has someone else to occupy her time. Her constant texting irritates me. I don't also like her talking on the phone for so long. Maybe I am envious:-( I would almost say NO each time she tells me that she will have a visitor. I am thinking that she is allowing again that guy to eat our food, hehehe..when I saw some of their pics on the Facebook...I cringed...my..why have a shot with their faces so close..always smiling...hmmph! If this is not paranoia, I don't know what to call it.

...For the first time she really transferred to her room when in fact she has been sharing our bedroom for the past 17 years. Independence...yeah, yeah...I just believe that she is talking to her boyfriend until late at night on the phone. I wish her phone would get lost or be broken then I am not gonna buy her a new one anymore. That would be fun:-)

...I also saw on FB that she bought him a birthday gift. That would be from the money I gave her...If she has extra, why doesn't she just give it back to me? Hmmnn.. I am getting to be a selfish, old woman, huh!

...I don't think she knows his full background. We haven't met his family...although the boy seems okay but needs to strrrrive harderrrrrrrr to please me and to assure me that he can provide for my daughter when the time comes. For now, I am trying to be nice to both of them although deep inside I want to strangle them:-(

I hope that they will separate soon, that would be great...

~bad thoughts

feb 16. 2011

Remembering Norla...

She was a friend from my college days. We did not go to the same school but we stayed in the same house. Her youngest sister is closer to me because of our age range. However, it did not stop us from being close also as she was such an endearing & funny person...always laughing....making fun of each situation and making fun even of herself at times. Her voice still lingers in my ears. Maybe she found in me a listening buddy..my attention would always be hers while she narrated her experiences..sometimes lowering her voice so that her sisters wouldn 't hear. She would also shout to my ate "No, Flor, I am not polluting Beng's mind".

During one of our light conversations in our dorm she told me that time would come when she would tell me that 'her baby is about 24 months old' referring to the baby's age in months like other countries do because she said, she will marry a foreigner. And it did happen..She married an Australian guy and that incident really happened as predicted.

She would call me each time she came home for a visit and we exchanged emails once in a while but it had stopped in 2009 as my former company ceased its operations in the country. We lost contact since then.

I still maintain my communications with her sisters thru FB. Yesterday, I was informed that Norla passed away...she was survived by her husband and 2 kids. I am saddened by her demise. Sad that her sisters will not be able to see her for the last time because of the distance .

Norla...you had made my college days so fun....I will always remember the time when we went to Rizal Park just to see Gary Valenciano.... there were so many people and we were perspiring a lot, as if we had just taken a bath but our smiles were from ear to ear, really glad of that experience.

When you went out at nights and would go home beyond our curfew at the dorm, you would tell me to open the door for you since you were not sure that your sisters would do it. However, I don't remember opening the door for you even once as I would always be fast asleep by then. In the morning, you would tell me how your date went..and we would always laugh at its turn out.

You were always willing to try new things, good or bad because according to you, we only live once...Sometimes, you would call me 'Adeng" referring to a younger sis, and I already missed that....

Norla, have you done all the crazy things you had wanted to try? Have you had the full life you were aiming at? Goodbye my laughing buddy...may you fill with laughter the space above. Rest in peace now....I am sure that you are now with our Lord because you are His child.